Dear Brandy

Dear Brandy, Remember when we first met and your mom kept calling me 30 and I got mad because Ibwas only turning 29?  Well now I'm about to turn 40. I'm having a big party and can't believe you won't be here with me. It's crazy how much has changed n 11 years, but it's crazier how much has changed in the last year.  I still miss you every day, but I'm finally okay again.  Love, Maj

Dear Brandy, It was 11 years ago today that we met.  We had stayed up all night on the phone and at like 2 am Val asked if you wanted to go to NYC to sign her divorce papers.  We met in a starbucks and made out in the bathroom.  Our connection and passion were undeniable.  Even though we didn't work out as a couple, we became the best of friends.  When you chose to take your life, I was broken.  Part of me thought, "She beat me to it."  I knew that I had to take care of my mental health after that.  Your death was my wakeup call.  It took me a long time, and it's been hard but today I realized I might not be broken anymore.  It's kind of scary to realize.  I still think about you daily, there is a whole year of my life that I shared with you and nobody else knows about.  David Enchilada, the starbucks barista we wanted to adopt, breakfast on the roof...  Sometimes my mind is haze on things and I don't have anyone I can ca...